trying to pass my time...

Been through like almost half of my holidays... Find them pretty boring. All ive been doing is like doing homework, eating, watching TV. Thats all. i really need something to spark my life. Been waiting for it 4eva. sigh...

(i just realized that all the stuff ive been riting is pretty morbid, huh?)

Well, today doesn't seem THAT bad...

Today may just be one of those days that I actually feel happy in... I mean, which day is perfectly fine and normal? Today I got of the right side of the bed and was feeling pretty happy. The whole day breezed through and I actually feel pleased with my results. That alone is already a one in a million chance, humans don't always feel happy with themselves, and I am not one of those who are easily contented. I a a perfectionist and I find myself wanting to get perfect results, even though the people around me don't actually realise it. But I think I am getting a teeny weeny better and I don't expect as much as I do before. All I want, ultimately, is to clinch better results than the average for ALL the subject (see, only a teeny weeny bit). I am over the moon!!!! Am I going crazy? Who cares?

again...

I need a spark in my old boring life... AHH!! ( Pulling out hair) Dun worry, Ive got loads of hair. The holidays are coming, and I am NOT really looking forward to it. Its not like Im going overseas or any thing. and Im going to miss the JAPAN TRIP!!! I'm devastated... :( I'm staying in school with only a handful of friends. Hope I can do smth interesting with them, if not I am going to sob like crazy until I die (hopefully peacefully in my sleep). Hope I get into some good school like rgss or nushigh or nanyang... sounds like I have fo loads of hopes! Who ask me to be a very hopeful person! :)

today is just an ordinary day

As usual... I sit here and type some idiotic nonsense that is nonsensical...:) Exams finally come to an end, but stuff never seem to end. People still buzz around, not doing any stuff. PSLE is just around the corner, juz like what all the teachers like 2 say.